11/11 update

Meal 1: Organic romaine lettuce, 1 blacked chicken breast, 1 carrot
Meal 2: Grilled white fish, shredded carrots, cabbage, 1/3 cup black beans and 1/3 cup brown rice
Snack: 1 apple and a handful of mixed nuts (mixed raw and salted)
Meal 3: Organic romaine, 3/4 can white tuna (in water), 1/3 cup broccoli.

I had every intention on working out today. I even went to the gym and did a set of deadlifts, 185 lbs x 5... and my body was just TIRED from yesterday's workout. Thinking, "There's no way this is going to be a good workout," I unloaded the weight and went home. Defeatist? Just honest, I think.

Tired recount

I'm wiped out! It's been a long day. I ate very well all day (I honestly don't remember at the moment all I ate)... classes weren't particularly stimulating. I'm looking forward to this semester being over, I haven't felt very mentally stimulated despite the heavy workload.

I had a good talk with Rusty after kettlebell class tonight about diet. I haven't been seeing results, so I got some good tips from him. I'll be writing down all that I'm eating for the next week and see what he thinks. I don't think I have a lot to lose, just a few areas that I'd like to slim down a bit.

Kettlebell class tonight was great -- very solid, I'm so tired! I'll sleep blessedly well tonight without a doubt. It's been a long week.

Tomorrow I have off from school -- until my 4 1/2 hour-long sports massage class that started at 5:30, anyway. Hopefully it'll be nice out so I can go hiking or do something outdoorsy. I'd love to go kayaking, but m'thinks my upper body will not be so stoked about this idea after tonight's workout.

Time to pass out.

New Snatch Test

So today was kind of a cheat day. Yum. I'm going out to sushi in a few minutes too to celebrate a friend's birthday. I did want to post though that I did the new snatch test, 80 reps with the 16kg, in under 5 minutes. And it was good.

11/07 update

I didn't work out today... I'm feeling pretty tired, and I'm feeling last night's workout. I've been eating pretty well, though. I can say that much.

Had a banana before I ran off to class.
Meal 1: Standard: 4 egg whites, broccoli, tomatoes, 1/4 oatmeal with honey and cinnamon, 1 apple.
Meal 2: Romaine lettuce with apple slices, grapes, blue cheese and grilled chicken.
Snack: 4 soy sausage links.
Meal 3: Organic romaine lettuce, grilled ahi poki, organic tomatoes, 1 piece of Ezekiel whole wheat toast.

And I definitely had 3 bites of Whitney's cinnamon-banana-chocolate chip pancake earlier... ohhh my goodness. I'm so proud of myself for stopping at three, mmm...

On another note. This is my quote of the day:

“Ordinary riches can be stolen, real riches cannot. In your soul are infinitely precious things that cannot be taken from you.” -- Oscar Wilde

I'm constantly reminded that life is a journey in every aspect; there's never any destination. There are plateaus, there are climaxes, there are slumps, yet the process is always continuous. I think on times where I've been completely in my own skin, and have felt solid in every sinew, every thought, every reality, every strength and every flaw. I don't feel that way right now; in fact, I felt lower than I have in quite a long time last night, and did and said some things that I regret. I'll carry remnants from some of those actions.

My intention is to act with integrity, to be solid and trustworthy and always loving. I live with my heart open, and am all the more passionate and excited for life because of it. Yet my fears sometimes manifest in ugly ways. And I don't know which way is up to air and which way is down deeper.

I don't have clarity. There is no easy way... which is not the issue. I can deal with pain, and have. I'm no martyr, but I do not fear pain if it is the path to greater strength and greater gain. I simply don't know the answer. Maybe I don't have enough information yet; I don't know. Patience and self-nurturing are going to be my greatest allies for now, I think. I hope to re-discover some of those riches within myself, and to discover new ones. I've always considered each person to be a world within a world, and always want to learn more about people, particularly those I'm close to. I forget sometimes that the same applies to me.

This is the most I've "talked" in a day! Enough for now. I hope everyone has a lovely evening/day -- and to each of you: be sure to go outside and take a deep breath in to your heart and belly, and dwell on one aspect of this life that you are humbled by and deeply grateful for.

That's all.

11/06 update

Meal 1: 4 egg whites, broccoli, tomatoes, feta cheese, 1 apple, 1 piece of Ezekiel bread.
Meal 2: Tuna sandwich with tomatoes on wheat toast.
Snack: Carrot
Post-workout: Carob-Almond smoothie with Rice Milk and protein powder.

Did Rusty's class tonight.

11/05 update

Run down:

Meal 1:
4 egg whites, broccoli, feta cheese, 1 apple, 1/4 oatmeal with some honey, cinnamon and a little bit of cocoa powder -- had to try it!

Snack:
Dried apple rings

Meal 2:
1 Picata Chicken breast, 1/3 cup of rice (don't remember what kind), 1 - 1 1/2 cup oven roasted vegetables.

Meal 3:
Organic romaine lettuce with jicama, tomatoes, shredded carrots, onions and topped with albacore tuna.

Had a chai latte tonight, too. Otherwise, just good ol' agua.

I'd like to get back into 5-6 meals a day... it's just tough with the schedule. We'll see how this goes, and make adjustments accordingly.

I was planning on working snatches today, but I didn't get home until about 9:20, and honestly, I just don't feel up to doing anything. Another long-ass day. I hate not getting my work outs in, and it only makes the mind and mood worse. Tired of shit, man. At least Obama is president!

Have a good one, peoples. Rusty's class tomorrow night, won't be able to pussy-foot tomorrow.

*@#%!

CRAZY day... and I still have hours left.

Woke up at 6:00 and worked on my research paper that was due today by 4:00. I worked until 8:15 straight through, stopped and had some breakfast: 4 egg whites, broccoli, tomatoes, some feta cheese and an apple. Then off to school. Crammed in some studying for my midterm tomorrow after class, then had lunch at Crazy Fakers with my dad: Organic lettuce with tomatoes, diced tuna, dried cranberries and some raspberry dressing.

Then I raced back home, and worked on my essay from 12:25 until 3:25. Talk about procrastination, gah... I'm horrible! Raced back to school to hand off the assignment to my teacher, had it to her by 3:45 -- time to spare!

Then I went to the polling station to vote... I then remembered that I'd accidentally had my ballot sent to my house. Which I never filled out, of course, but I had to go back to my house and get it, and then go back to the polling station. But I voted -- woo hoo!

Just got home, through some dinner together -- organic romaine lettuce, grilled ahi poki, jicama, and a handful of corn chips to satiate my munchies, haha.

Unfortunately I won't have time to fit in a workout today... grr. I'm off to my sports massage class in about 15 minutes, which'll keep me until 10:00. Then more studying. Yowza! At least I ate well today, and I drank only water and a little bit of kombucha.

Quick note: Keep your core SOLID when you're doing C&Js, even when you're getting tired! You're going to put undue pressure on your lumbar spine otherwise. Figured this one out last night -- brutal.

Anyways, hope everyone's well. Have a tasty night!